Eye On Life Magazine

Make every day a beautiful day.

Eye on Life Magazine is a Lifestyle and Literary Magazine.  Enjoy articles on gardening, kitchen cooking, poetry, vintage decor, and more.

Waiting for the Same Thing

We're all waiting
for the same thing,
the old monk told me
on a tour of the abbey
the day after the monks
buried my brother  
in the cemetery down
by the creek.

At some abbeys, he said,
monks make fruit cakes,
cheese, jams or fudge.
Every abbey, he said,   
has to sell something  
while we're waiting
for the same thing.

I know you and your brother
weren't close but he probably
told you we've been making
pine caskets for 70 years.
He was an artist with a chisel.
Never a word out of him.
Just shavings of wood
flying around him like moths.
We have no one to replace him.

And business is improving.
I don't know how we'll keep up.
It's no longer just monks
at the other abbeys
buying our caskets.
Suddenly civilians  
like the simple design,
the plain box made out of pine,
no puffery, nothing fancy.  
One man drove down here,
bought two and fit both
in the trunk of his Lexus.
Imagine that: our caskets
in the trunk of a Lexus.

The monks who make fruit cakes
and other good food buy caskets
from us and we buy what they make  
but we don't need fruit cakes
the way they need our caskets.
Monks are getting older.
The jams and fudge, however,
and the sharp cheddar cheese
are a pleasant distraction
while we're waiting
for the same thing.


-- Donal Mahoney

A Touch of Alzheimer's

Wherever I go,
there I am
but if I'm not there

my wife is,
her eyes smiling.
It's been that way

for fifty years.
Not much more
to say except

whenever I go
some place
and discover

she's not there,
then I'm not
there either

even though
neighbors tell her
they saw me there

so I ask them what's
the difference between
flotsam and jetsam.

They have no answer.
Why in their world
worry about me.

-- Donal Mahoney

Cats Are Poetry

In your mind you hear
words snarling
all day long
but no poem arrives.
The words are locked
in a cat fight,
syllables flying.

You hope the words
sleep well tonight and
wake in orderly fashion,
the way your cats
stretch at dawn
and wait to be fed
with feline decorum.

In the morning
the poem arrives
word by word,
chips off a diamond,
so you stop shaving,
grab a pen and
take dictation.

You write the words
as you hear them,
tweak a line or two,
and go spelunking
in your mind for
the right title.

Later, in celebration,
you tote a blast horn
to the roof
of the building
and announce
what agnostics suspect
and atheists know:

Cats are poetry.
Dogs are prose.


-- Donal Mahoney

Brother’s Band

All aboard in olive drab

The passengers they came

Some rich, some poor

These lives they grab

For hope their souls, to tame

I was among these stolid men

A brother’s band they kept

A transient community

Now gone, but no one wept

Memories still linger though

My friends of war and peace

I never thought I’d miss them so

Those good times never cease

If in good time I get a chance

To catch up with them some day

The hugs and shakes of soldier’s hands

Of love they’d loudly say

 

-- Ed Pierce  

The Pumpkin Kid

Autumn is my favorite time, its chill,
its cider smell, its bluest skies
devoid of moisture. Season or age,
nothing has a sharper edge ...
autumn, autumn, autumn.
Come fall, my son's wife
lines their drive with twenty
of these slick orangey globes,
and from age ten or so,
my granddaughter has used them
to make the pies for our Thanksgiving
gathering of 50 or more.
In the Ukraine, pumpkins promote
virility, good health, but a girl can
reject a man's advances
by handing him one.  She has also
done a lot of that in her young life.

I love the one I buy for my porch
the crisp fall colors of pumpkin,
gourds and Indian corn.
But later I find it good only for soup
or roasted seeds, such a stringy mess,
fibrous and slimy inside.  It seems odd
to ask her how she does it,
to ask her to pass on
reverse generational wisdom.
But since she charms me, too,
I'll not demure when others say
they much prefer the coming of spring.

 

-- Carol Hamilton  

Thanksgiving

Long journey to a gray dawn,
scant leaves trembling still
on broken branches, pathos
of great trunk and arms lopped
off after ice to leave
an elm amputee still reaching up
despite the horrors.  We keep on
stirring at sky despite it all,
whisper our stuttered credos,
limp back down
from the hoped-for heights
to the table where we bow our heads,
lift up, still, one more petition.

 

-- Carol Hamilton  

No Translation Needed

 "Rashn...libehn...hodehn"...
My head...my heart...my stomach..."
from CUTTING FOR STONE, Abraham Verghese

He writes of Ethiopia,
and I also was high in mountains,
Peru at 13,000 ft.
There the same hand gestures
became laughable day after day after day.
"My head, my back, my stomach." 
My Quechua translator Paulino
taught me a little of his tongue,
but his beautiful, dark face only smiled,
for I knew the drill, could inform
our Icelandic doctor the symptoms
without intermediary Spanish. 
She, too,  knew, the familiar story,
and she had a tally in her head,
how many patients we could
fly through in a long day,
and though she spurned palliative care,
there usually was little to be done
but push our donated pain pills. 
She was impatient of my
unneeded English explication.
The hands danced in familiar patterns,
while the enormous loads toted
on petite shoulders for eons,
the parasites were there to stay. 
Occasional falls from rooftops or
gorings by free-roaming bulls
were the only pertinent changes
in the stories.  The fluttering hands,
the creviced skin of faces pleated
in pantomimed misery are archetypal.
We, in our Westernized distresses,
fine tune our tales of woe.
There the caregiver, all too often,
must only offer pills, and perhaps,
despite the lack of remedy,
learns to mutter, "I understand."

 

-- Carol Hamilton  

The Comics

In the attic the author caught
the scent from boyhood,
and his career catapulted
from one track to another.
How I dragged my reluctant voice 
over large balloons of small print
for you, Dick Tracy or Superman.
How you sank into the pages.
How the newsprint
inked our fingers.

Teachers and mothers cried danger,
but no.  You became the superhero.
Those belabored words
on cheap paper caught something
unintended.  My past pages hold
Little Lulu, Slugo, and the flightiness
of Veronica, the clueless Archie.

Genies escape from dusty jugs
left forgotten in unused rooms,
and magic gives no account of itself.

 

-- Carol Hamilton  

Life Changing Moments

Poor Lorca!  Poor Apollinaire!
Betrayed by the friends
they trusted most, those artists
we still revere. They held their best friends
in clouds of good will which
then turned to clinging shrouds.
Each wailed as we at birth,
clutched air to halt his fall,
then taught himself trust,
but it would not hold,
though still the cradle rocks.

 

-- Carol Hamilton

Gift from the Daughter Who Disappeared

Your package arrived last night.
When my wife brought it in, I said,
"Make certain it's not ticking."
It wasn't, so she opened it.
I grabbed the wedding pictures
without reading your letter

and saw you and your groom
graciously attired except for
the flannel pajama bottoms.
"My God," I yelled, "they had
a Hare Krishna wedding!"
Not that there's anything
wrong with that.

My wife said your letter explains
why you wore pajama bottoms
over your wedding outfits--
to stay warm on a wintry day.
I should have guessed.

The package arrived late
so I felt it unfair to read your letter
when I wasn't at my best.
After all these years,  
one more day in absentia
shouldn't be held against me.

Your letter looks long, ominous.
I would expect nothing less.
I asked my wife to read it
to see if any land mines lurk.
She said she saw none
but she wasn't at our Nagasaki
so she might have missed
some deft allusions.

I'm more careful these days
guarding the remnants.
On dark Tuesday mornings,
when I wheel the garbage cans out,
I make certain your brother isn't
on horseback at the curb,
scabbard unbuckled,
primed for another debate.
You were both so young.
He was a tyke who suffered
the fallout, not the conflagration.

You look good in the photos;
your new husband as well.
The priest looks the way
priests used to look.
He'd be good in old movies
standing in for Spencer or Bing.

You're a beautiful lady
as the pictures make clear.
Always were, always will be.
Please know it's difficult
after all these years to dodge
bombs of memory dropped
by what happened
and what never will be.

I promise to get back to you
about all that you've sent
and all that I haven't.
Some day we must
catalogue everything
in case a genealogist
is born into the family
generations hence
and wants to know
what we know.

Till then, much love.
Give my best to the groom.
Tell him pajamas at his wedding
are only the beginning.
A monocle or pince-nez is next.

 

-- Donal Mahoney

New Pickle on Christmas Eve

Paddy stops at Rosen's Deli
and orders brisket
on a Kaiser roll, a dab
of horseradish, a new
pickle on the side.

"Latke, too, Sol. Coffee later.
No dinner tonight.
Maggie's not feeling well.
I'll eat here and take a tub
of noodle soup to go."

Paddy eats and meets Sol
wrestling with his register.
"How's Mrs. Rosen, Sol?
Haven't seen her in
a month of Sundays."

"Could be cancer, Paddy.
They operate next week.
Things don't look good.
Doc says everything depends
on what they find inside."

Paddy has no idea what to say.
He knows Minerva Rosen better
than he knows old Sol.
Years ago she handed him
his first new pickle.

"At church tomorrow, Sol,
Maggie and I will pray hard.
I hope to God it works.
At times, praying's all
anyone can do."


-- Donal Mahoney

Thoughts While Waiting

Ruth's at an age
where she's happy
to sit in the sun
under a patio umbrella
and watch a line of ants
curve across a path
carrying seed
to their burrow.

She and her husband
watched ants
parade each summer
for forty years.
Always the same burrow,
Ruben would stress.
But different ants,
life being what it is.

Ruben didn't like the ants.
They reminded him,
he said, of his parents
in line at Dachau,
waiting to find out
if there's a heaven,
wanting to know
if God was watching.

-- Donal Mahoney

Herbie Gets Emails

When Herbie gets an email
from one of his sons,
it's never a problem.
Usually it's about the game
one of them has tickets for

or a chance to go hunting.
But when he gets an email
from one of his daughters,
it's different because
her dead mother's face

is a watermark talking
behind the message.
Dead for a decade,
she wants to settle
an argument 

Herbie can't remember,
an argument neighbors
can no longer hear.
This time the police
won't be coming
 
which makes Herbie thankful
as he tries to sound cheerful
in his reply to his daughter
who's still as beautiful
as her mother back when.


-- Donal Mahoney

Three Ways of Looking at a Father

Dead these many years,
Dad's still there for me
every day, pointing

from a star
toward excellence,
the goal we shared.

I missed two free throws once
at the end of a high school game
and we lost by a point.

On the way home
after the game, he said,
"Why did you miss

those free throws?"
Years later in college
I came home with all A's

and one B. I showed him
my grades and he said,
over his newspaper,

"Why did you get the B?"
After graduation I was thinking
about getting married but I

wasn't certain. So I asked him
what did he think. Once again
he was there for me.

Sipping his tea, he said
"You asked the girl, right?
Follow through."


-- Donal Mahoney

Night Terrors

Curled under the covers, I wait.

Light leaks under the door, pooling into the room like a beacon of betrayal. Dividing us.

I hear the hum of your escape. You take pleasure in everything but me.

Another night I wait, sleepless and anxious.

My curiosity will sprout paranoia, fueled by a memory of treachery. It is enough to make my eyes

pierce the door, longing for the walls between us to give way.

Each scuff, each scrape, every soundless movement you make bleeds under the door,

making me toss and tangle. It is too much.

My feet scramble free of my nest and carry me to the door. Head throbbing, mind racing.

My throat burns and I make my way through your sanctuary, determined to drink down the lies,

ignoring the truth which colors your face as you comprehend my approach.

Soon, you say. You will join me soon.

Closing the door behind me, I curl back under the now cold covers. I wait.

There is no sanctuary. You take pleasure in everything but me.

 

-- Deanna M. Jessup  

KNEE FREE

Her knees flash like cat’s eyes at night
as she climbs down the stairs
in her shorts and long socks attire.
The knees must seethe with heat waves
shimmering beneath long pants
heating her entire being until free --
smiling kneecaps like prisoners
released to wonder in outside world.

 

-- Diane Webster  

WIND WAKE

Wind bludgeoned the solid wooden fence

wiggling the posts into wider and wider

holes with each gust banging gate hinges

like maddened teenage boy desiring

adulthood when he could listen only

to his own voice mingling with wind

finally independent of the obstacle

lying below its jet stream path in wake

splintered flat in resignation.

 

-- Diane Webster  

Father Comforts Tearful Nora, 6

I think you're right, Nora.
There must be a Man in the Moon
and a Man in the Sun  

changing light bulbs all day long.
They are shy gentlemen  
the garden gnome said yesterday.

A smile from you, I'm sure, 
would make them blush.
The Man in the Moon

might hide behind a cloud
and the Man in the Sun
might dive behind a star.

But now and then
both of them would peek to see
if Nora ever smiles again.

-- Donal Mahoney

Gentleman's Club

With feline grace
and feral eyes
a ponytail

of raven hair
bouncing, bouncing
waitress tall  

wisp of skirt
spaceship heels
weaves among

tiny tables
tray held high
in a disco sky

ice cubes tinkling
a lioness amused
by eyes of prey

never brushes
a single shoulder
as men drink up,

reach for money.
Perhaps she will.
Let's have another.

-- Donal Mahoney